Stressed...to say the least!

Well, Happy December everyone!  Can you believe another year has almost passed us by?  Crazy!  Well as you know...I just turned 36 years old..I've actually had a really hard time with it!  I woke up that morning, and wondered...what now?  What will my life bring me...so far no kids...and I have to admit...I haven't had the happiest of marriages.  So...what's next?  It's a scary question if you think deeply about it!
So, Jeff and I went home for Thanksgiving...home being the great state of Texas of course!  It was a great visit!  Granny cooked all of my favorites and the weather was cold and crisp!  I do miss the colder weather.  We did alot of traveling on this trip.
Friday night I met up with some of my high school friends I haven't seen in years...that was a great feeling.  I almost felt "at home" again.  We had alot to catch up on so I really enjoyed it.
I went to see my Mamaw that morning...not so much fun.  As soon as I got there..of course she started going on and on about my weight.  Some things never change!  I started crying and was ready to go immediately!
I have a really hard time leaving my family.  I'm always in tears when I leave, then it takes me several days to get over it.  I hate I'm missing out on my neice's life...she doesn't even know who I am.  Sad.  I guess things do happen for a reason...and that's why I'm in florida.  God has me here for a reason...I'm just not sure what it is yet.....
There are big changes coming at work.  I just found our that my boss wants me to work 4 days a week now instead of 3.  This is a very hard thing for me because I have a young step daughter at home and a new husband.  I feel like i'm totally out of the loop already...4 days will only make it worse.  I'm also not real sure how I can juggle alll my work demands...such as meetings galore, working on the schedule and 4 days a week and pursue my master's degree.  I started thinking about it and got really scared.  I don't think I can take anymore stress right now.  If I fail, I have to pay back $10K and that's not going to happen.  I think I need to hold off and just see what work brings my way.  I hate to turn down "free" tuition, but I also have to think about my family.  I just pray I'm making the right decision.
Well..enough for now!
Peace!
Holley