Thursday, August 18, 2011
Someday..You are going to miss me....
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Life...Only YOU can make it better....
Wow! It's been so long since I blogged! My best friend Ash introduced it to me....and It is kind of like my own "little" diary.
Well...not much has happened since my last blog....to be honest i have a really boring life!
This week I have been so depressed. So many sad things happen to people...and it leaves me asking myself..."why can't I just be happy?" This week my cousin Neile lost her step son to a horrific motorcycle accident. He lost his life at age 16. It's been really bothering me...even though I have never met him. Next, I see a post of FB from a guy i went to high school with in Seminole. He just lost his wife to breast cancer. She was diagnosed when she got pregnant with their second child. My heart goes out to her..for her courageous fight with breast cancer while carrying a baby. I can't imagine what that poor girl went through. She lost her life yesterday. So...this leaves me asking myself..."is my life really that bad?" Life is so short....and I think we all need to appreciate every moment of it!
I've always had everything...and never happy. Why? I never feel like I have a good relationship with men. I have terrible marriages...is it me...or is it the men I choose? My life in Florida is essentially no life. I live an hour away from all my friends at work...and don't have any friends in Vero. I'm sad all of the time...and the only person i have to talk to is an 11 year old girl. My husband has nothing to talk to me about. All he wants to do...is surf the web and play games on his phone. He hardly says two words to me....I'm lonely and unhappy. My mom can read me like a book...she texted me yesterday and said she is worried about me. She says i'm not myself lately. i don't have the guts to tell her how miserable because she will worry non-stop about me. She has enough to worry about in her own life.
But....for those who know me...I'm a tough person...so when I've had enough...I'll be done and there will be NO turning back. He has been warned....and he chooses to ignore it.
The first thing I have to do is be happy with myself! Why do I always let myself go when I get married? I'm almost 200 lbs now and totally miserable! So..it's about time I get me back!
Second...life is too short to set around and do nothing...just because i'm married to a fun hater! So....if I get invited to do something...I'm going to do it! Tonight I got invited to go to Sips and Strokes...an amateur painting class...and I'm going! Like it or not!
I feel like I owe some people some BIG apologies. I thought Terry was a horrible person...but as time goes on...i see maybe he wasn't so bad afterall. Don't get me wrong...he had his faults...but Jeff may be the bigger asshole. Treat my family bad in September...and I will be gone! I have zero tollerance for that! You have been warned!
Ok...I feel better now!
Peace and Love...and Cheers to a HAPPIER life!!!!!
Holley..a misplaced TEXAN!!!!!!
Well...not much has happened since my last blog....to be honest i have a really boring life!
This week I have been so depressed. So many sad things happen to people...and it leaves me asking myself..."why can't I just be happy?" This week my cousin Neile lost her step son to a horrific motorcycle accident. He lost his life at age 16. It's been really bothering me...even though I have never met him. Next, I see a post of FB from a guy i went to high school with in Seminole. He just lost his wife to breast cancer. She was diagnosed when she got pregnant with their second child. My heart goes out to her..for her courageous fight with breast cancer while carrying a baby. I can't imagine what that poor girl went through. She lost her life yesterday. So...this leaves me asking myself..."is my life really that bad?" Life is so short....and I think we all need to appreciate every moment of it!
I've always had everything...and never happy. Why? I never feel like I have a good relationship with men. I have terrible marriages...is it me...or is it the men I choose? My life in Florida is essentially no life. I live an hour away from all my friends at work...and don't have any friends in Vero. I'm sad all of the time...and the only person i have to talk to is an 11 year old girl. My husband has nothing to talk to me about. All he wants to do...is surf the web and play games on his phone. He hardly says two words to me....I'm lonely and unhappy. My mom can read me like a book...she texted me yesterday and said she is worried about me. She says i'm not myself lately. i don't have the guts to tell her how miserable because she will worry non-stop about me. She has enough to worry about in her own life.
But....for those who know me...I'm a tough person...so when I've had enough...I'll be done and there will be NO turning back. He has been warned....and he chooses to ignore it.
The first thing I have to do is be happy with myself! Why do I always let myself go when I get married? I'm almost 200 lbs now and totally miserable! So..it's about time I get me back!
Second...life is too short to set around and do nothing...just because i'm married to a fun hater! So....if I get invited to do something...I'm going to do it! Tonight I got invited to go to Sips and Strokes...an amateur painting class...and I'm going! Like it or not!
I feel like I owe some people some BIG apologies. I thought Terry was a horrible person...but as time goes on...i see maybe he wasn't so bad afterall. Don't get me wrong...he had his faults...but Jeff may be the bigger asshole. Treat my family bad in September...and I will be gone! I have zero tollerance for that! You have been warned!
Ok...I feel better now!
Peace and Love...and Cheers to a HAPPIER life!!!!!
Holley..a misplaced TEXAN!!!!!!
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